A heavy wave is striking.
2020, an unexpected and difficult situation came to me. Covid-19. I did not imagine what was going to come. Regardless of my will, I had to stay at home for such a long time. It felt like there is nothing that I could change about it. I had to accept the bad news…
I realized that one by one all my plans got cancelled. The situation has gotten more serious.
Without work, how can I find a balance for one year in a foreign
country?
How can I find a new artistic routine?
It was very hard to accept all kinds of changes at the same time. I was not ready for this. I believe for many people it was like this.
Nervosity, Fear, Instability, Confusion, Scariness, Disappointment,
Loneliness, Lack of Motivation, Depression …
Spending time in my imagination was a way to escape from the situation.
I imagined teleporting to other spaces.
I imagined working with my colleagues. I imagined having a holiday …
So I was becoming a dreamer.
If…
If…
If…
I never used this word so frequently in my life.
If…
If…
What is my normal daily life?
So in this portrait-task I started to develop from the word “if“.